I understand, Sandy! Meditation is so helpful and certainly less risky than any drug. The folks who advocate therapeutic use of Psychedelics are unanimous about taking them under supervision, probably because of the risks.
I was lucky to start taking them with people who were on that ‘60’s consciousness raising path, even if those people didn’t exercise the best judgment when they encouraged a 14 year old kid to take LSD. I did have a bad trip once with my best friend, and maybe I’ll write about that with her in the future. We both survived to tell the tale.